Peace Out, 2016!

Bye bye, 2016.  Hasta la vista.  Adios.  Peace out.  What a whirlwind of a year you turned out to be...goodbye and good riddance.  As a Christian and a mother of three girls I try my best to set an example of being a positive person but, man, sometimes life gets so crazy that even the strongest of people can't keep it together!  2016 was my kryptonite.  For the first time in my adult life I was faced with real, grown up issues.  Issues that hurt and made me look inside.  Issues that made me face reality and unearthed emotions that had been stuffed down for so incredibly long.  Through every twisting and winding turn I felt myself growing stronger, more focused, more in control.  

My biggest revelation of 2016?  God has a plan.  Not only does He have a plan, He will work tirelessly to carry out that plan.  It doesn't matter if it's 5:50 a.m., 7:41 p.m., 12:15 a.m....God is working.  For me, someone who has a 'Type A-I-can-handle-everything personality', this was incredibly scary.  Relinquishing control and changing the course of my entire life up to this point was the single most frightening thing I have ever been through.  I am still working through it and I'm sure I will continue to work through it for the days, weeks, months and years to come.  

Change can be scary.  Change can be unwelcome and disconcerting and painful.  But, at the same time, change can bring about the most beautiful, amazing, wonderful blessings.  One of my favorite quotes that I remind myself, and my daughters, of constantly is this:

"If nothing ever changed, there would be no butterflies"

So, in the midst of the mud and mire of 2016, along came one of many big changes for me...I made a career change from physical therapy to becoming an interior designer trained at the New York School of Interior Design.  Inspired by a deep seated desire to help others achieve a feeling of home in their own houses, Blue Nest Design was born.  I believe wholeheartedly that home is a feeling, not a place.  For far too long there was a void in my own heart...a longing for that feeling of 'home'.  The end of a 17 year relationship (13 year marriage) that didn't give me that feeling of 'home' was a huge eye opener for me.  I realized that the pain of staying the same was greater than the pain of change and the person who I thought I knew inside and out quickly became someone I didn't know at all.  I also realized that I had been constantly searching for love, companionship and a sense of 'home' from friends and neighbors since I wasn't able to feel love, support and security from my own spouse...I couldn't even recall the last time I heard the words, "I love you".  In my quest for love and and belonging I discovered what a true feeling of 'home' actually means.  Through the painful process of being true to myself (finally) and true to my feelings (finally) I created Blue Nest Design with the soul purpose of designing spaces for others to help them on their journey toward creating that perfect and beautiful and fulfilling place they can call 'home'.

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